God is my Chief

Greetings

Back when I was in recovery from an addictions lifestyle I had a discussion with a friend of mine. His name was Marcel (a man in the program for 30+ years). The discussion was about my relationship with the Creator. I realized then, I didn't have a personal relationship with a greater being. He asked how I survived Spiritually.

My answers I shared were how I followed and participated in ceremonies. I participated in them. I worked them. I practiced them. I sang the songs. But in all that he was not satisfied with all my descriptions of my Spiritual relationship with the Creator.

What he wanted to know is: how did I speak with the Creator? I told him that I prayed everyday and fast throughout the year. But he still didn't like my answers.

Finally, he asked me to describe the Creator. What did I think the Creator would look like? I didn't know if I should, but he asked me to describe and make it up if I needed. So, with hesitation, I remember saying, "he was this Great Warrior strong and gentle at the same time, riding a Strong and Spirited Horse. Bigger than the universe and smaller than air. So I can be with Creator all the time. He looked fierce and magnificent and peaceful. A protector and a nurturer."

Then he said to "what would you say if the Creator just showed up in front of you now, and the Creator looked just as you described?"

Well he stunned me with his question. I felt a bit uneasy, because I thought he was just playing. But he was persistent. After I accepted to speak out, my answer, or comment I would say to the Creator was "Hello God?" He liked it and said "good, thats what I mean".

Suddenly I had a feeling I knew, but never felt for a long time.

I loved it, and I could not go without thinking about the feeling and experience i just had. I realized, I enjoyed talking to God, the way I am writing or speaking right now. I suddenly had a friend and I was happy. Every chance, every moment I had, I was visiting with God, the Great Spirit, there was no other. I realized, even while I was in all the Ceremonies, the rituals, learning about the Creator, I was missing the best part, talking and visiting with the Creator. Afterward, I continued my relationship with God and came to a peace with mankind and with who I am. Glory to God.

I spent most of my days since, speaking and visiting with God. I loved it. In every situation I felt I was on the right path, my purpose was fulfilled. Even through there was obstacles, I maintained my belief, I walked through the dark passages with God and learned valuable lessons. I had Faith.

I was grateful, and I wanted to celebrated and share my new friend. I had a motto that reminded me to stay focused in all situations, so I would say this phrase in my mind or out loud, "God is my Chief!"

My wife even made made me a T-Shirt with the words "God is my Chief", on the front and I wore it in public.

People would come up to me, when they see my shirt and say things like "Yes, I know what you mean", or "how can I get that?" or "that is the only way!". I don't think I was trying to make a statement for others to see, but I did, I only want to wear the shirt in public. I felt good to glorify the Creator.

Since then I have been living a good life with my family, my community, there is no addiction lifestyles and I am enjoying the all Ceremonies even more.

Today I continue walking through the obstacles, but I approach them with the Creator as my Guide. I don't walk a fine line, but I stay closer to the line then ever before, and if I stumble, I take the lesson and moved on. I learn. I gain wisdom. I appreciate my life. It is one of a kind. No one else has my life and purpose. I am unique and I love that. God is My Chief!

I am happy, I get to share this good story.

Tony